The epiphanies of turning 30 …

So yes … my last blog post was August last year. It is now June 2015 …. that is nearing the year mark.

First of all, love of my life number two, Oscar the Pugalier …. has been the most wonderful learning curve. That pup will forever believe he is human and dictate which walking route we take each evening. He just celebrated his first birthday !

The other half ( love of my life number one ) got his first big promotion after a lot of hard work. He loves his knew role and I can see his passion each day when he shares his thoughts with me. I am excited for him and know how good he is in his new role.  I cannot wait to see where this takes him. So inspirational.

Myself .. ? I got sick .. really sick. Weeks after my last blog my health declined, weight dropped .. and I could barely wait each day until it was time to go back to bed. It was hard to care beyond what I had to do. Then I ended up in hospital with stupid low potassium levels ( that stuff is painful to replace .. think acid in your veins ) and weird spiking/dropping sugar levels that caused pretty scary seizures. Yup .. 2014 didn’t quite deliver the healthy self I aimed for.

Then came our Bali and Lombok ‘escape Christmas’ holiday … which I went on despite dubious doctors thoughts .. and goodness did that trip heal me. No longer was I sickly Cheryl.  Suddenly we were taking leisurely breakfasts, walking the beaches, taking yoga and mediation classes and sampling the best Indonesian fare .. whilst truly staying in some amazing hotels and boutique resorts. We reconnected with each other .. and ourselves. Here came epiphany number one .. Doctors are not always right. My interest for natural healing and holistic nutrition doubled.

On a side note … I will post about some properties I have stayed at in Bali and Lombok over the last year … I urge you to try these properties, they are so different and unique each way I feel that at least one will resonate with your holiday self … if not all, like me ! Bali is so much more than a cheap getaway for Australians. Indonesia is a very special place to visit – I encourage you to embrace all it has to offer !

Sadly my return home saw my health decline again .. and truly it got me terribly depressed .. and grumpy !!  That centred being with glowing skin ( It really was .. ) that walked off the plane from Bali disappeared almost completely in a matter of a month. What can you do when you can’t even keep your social plans ? I was back to doing the bare minimum … work, eat, sleep. It felt like the walls were closing in again … Doctor after doctor just sent me to the hospital. Miserable … with a capital ‘M’.

It didn’t help that this year I was turning 30 and felt my life was slowly sliding backwards instead of piloting forwards. Where was my high flying career ? Where was my success .. my pulitzer prize, my New York Times review … ?! Ok, I got carried away. Truly though, I once had dreams … and I was back to hoping I could just make it to work for the day .. and through that day for that matter. I didn’t see the point in setting goals or having dreams .. what was the point if you could never reach/achieve them ? I once was a high achiever .. and yet my ‘gumption’ had gone.

Then one day early May I woke up .. and epiphany number two hit . Now this could very well be that our new mattress and pillows finally meant a proper nights sleep or.. that my regular physio sessions were magically helping with my joint and neck pain management .. but I think my mind just shifted. I have become comfortable in my own skin – and isn’t that the magic of growing older ? I am not just my illness. I achieve things every day. I have travelled the world .. experienced many wonderful cultures and will do so till my dying days. I am ok with who I am .. because I have grown and continue to seek ways to do so each day. I strive to be good to others and myself.

With that in mind I felt like I could begin to Blog again. I want this blog to be what I set out it to be. A place of mindfulness, exploration, growth and love of life … now I feel it can.

Sooo here it is .. my new commitment to what is Missy Bluebird. It is not about finding happiness over the rainbow .. its is about enjoying life and marvelling at the beauty, rather than focusing on the battles. I think with this we can all live over that mythical rainbow ! Now … They say things come in threes … so I look forward to epiphany number 3 because its sure to be a cracker !

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Resolving to love 2014.

Well a very Merry Christmas to all and I hope the year 2014 is kind to you 🙂 First a few seasonal shots ! Then a few seasonal thoughts …

I started this Blog for various reasons, but principally it seemed a therapeutic exercise to take part in when things were looking somewhat low. I hoped it would keep me mindful to what is important and perhaps even inspire others to do the same. I think, despite it not being a consistent practice it has helped.  Truthfully the blogging world has opened up my mind and soul to what anyone can achieve .. and has offered a plethora of support and information when both natural health practitioners, doctors and specialists seemed to give me consistently conflicting information !

Now that the doors of 2013 have well and truly closed, I find myself packing away all our Xmas cheer and truly reflecting on the year that has passed. It was a tough year financially, medically and subsequently emotionally. The ups and downs have taken its toll, but I have learnt so much about myself, others and what really matters. Over all I am grateful for what 2013 has taught me and whilst you won’t find me wishing for another year like the last; I am proud of my perseverance and come away with an understanding that healing is far more than the right doctor, right medication or diet. It is about family, friends, love, dreams and adventures. We should wake up each day expecting that something wonderful will happen. No ailment should define us.

Thus I begin 2014 with a strong resolve to make it a happy year, no matter what challenges the universe offers up – I want to dream big and aim for the stars in all aspects of my life. Like so many others I have my resolutions and plans. Sam and I made ours together this year and it was lovely to know we were on the same page. Career takes a strong place in Sam’s as he goes for a promotion, but as I return to more hours at work it also plays a strong part in mine. I am excited to where our careers may take us in 2014. Of course health and fitness is a strong focus and I look forward to our joint Yoga classes ( I am hoping Sam likes it as much as me ! ), continuing to make and eat healthy, locally sourced food. Most of all we will cherish each other and our nearest and dearest more. In 2014 we will be more mindful. We haven’t booked a big trip for the year ( unusual ! ), there is no wedding date set as yet, however I feel more ready and excited about the next 12 months than many of those past! Perhaps it is all about head space ?!

Forgive yesterday, be mindful of today and dream of tomorrow.

So in a final hoorah to the year that was I’ve listed just a few of my favourite things 🙂 Perhaps they may inspire your 2014 ?!

Favourite Things of 2013

Green Kitchen Stories Blog and Book – by far the most inspiring and  family. With such beautiful stories, photographs and recipes I find myself all too often whipping up one of there creations in my kitchen and dreaming of Sweden !

The Healthy Chef – Teresa Cutter – the women who taught me how to bake healthy treats and truly nourishing meals !

Sarah Wilson – I am still on the fence with the entire quitting sugar thing, even though my dietitian introduced the benefits of fructose free to an unheathly gut 12 months ago, I’m not a fan of eliminating anything from your diet entirely. However I do find her story inspiring and her outlook refreshing.

Kikki K – Inspiring , fantastic and simply just pretty 🙂

All things Lorna Jane .. what a women !

Pinterest – honestly its a visual utopia .. and a great distraction/motivator !

Our adventures in New York and amazing getaway in Sydney .. because Travel truly does enrich the soul !!

And last but not least Family and Friends – 2013 was the first time I held my niece and nephew – the two most gorgeous Canadian/Aussies around .. and that has to be one mega highlight !!!

Love and peace to all – and a very Happy New Year xo